Hands down, the most difficult part of my nurse practitioner career to date has been on the job learning. Shockingly, it has even been worse than changing adult diapers on the neuro unit during my RN program. Bridging the gap between what I learned in school and the knowledge and skills necessary to practice has not been easy. This was most difficult in my first year as a NP and gets easier with time, but I have to wonder is there a better way to kick off a career as a nurse practitioner?
My first few months of practice, I literally sat in my car upon arriving at the clinic willing my feet to take the few steps through the front door to begin work each day. Not even my spirited supervising physician who drove a Harley and lived with eleven Chihuahua’s could ease my anxiety (true story). The stress of being a new NP was overwhelming. Each new work day presented an exhausting list of challenges, mainly the pressure to perform in a busy, performance-based practice despite my new grad status and associated lack of knowledge.
I would moan and curse under my breath, filled with dread when I noticed an office visit requiring a procedure on my schedule. I have seen an abscess drained but never performed the procedure myself I would think. Not only did I have to gather the courage to learn on a real, live patient but I have to take another nurse practitioner or physician (usually the one with all the Chihuahua’s) away from their busy day to help train me.
Once I thought this learning process was complete, that I had mastered the life of a family nurse practitioner and the art of working in a walk-in clinic, that I no longer deserved newbie status, I decided to pursue my dream of becoming an emergency department nurse practitioner. You can imagine my joy upon hearing the words “You’re hired”. However, my first day of orientation was immediately followed by the apprehension of beginning the on the job learning process all over again. Only this time it was worse. I don’t think I even deserved newbie status. I was more at the “even the ED techs know more than this girl” level.
The emergency department is a busy place. Speed, efficiency and accuracy are key. These valued qualities were exactly what I lacked as a relatively new nurse practitioner beginning practice in a new specialty. I had to psych myself up for work each day mentally preparing for what would likely be the most stressful day of my life to date. I know, I sound dramatic, but that’s how I felt. And, drama queen aside, these really were some stress inducing days. Fortunately, just like my prior position in the walk-in clinic, I persevered tackling the learning process step by step.
Despite the unyielding demands of my first years as a nurse practitioner, I am proud I challenged myself to pursue a new specialty rather than stick with one less satisfying. As a new nurse practitioner, you may find yourself stretched thin and stressed out in your first job. Don’t fret. Here are a few tips in conquering the on the job learning process and surviving your first year of practice:
I wish I could say there is a secret to breezing through those tenuous first years of practice as a nurse practitioner. There’s not. Stick with the learning process even after your nurse practitioner program is complete. You will make it through the difficult first days of your career, one day waking up to realize you have come through on the other side.
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